"Ask the Characters!"

[x-siryn.livejournal.com]

We haven't had an "Ask the Characters!" since the end of June. And so, because I want to (and because I think that Bleeding probably led to questions), a meme!

Open to player and audience participation. The rules are easy.

Post a question for any character in the game, and get it answered in and/or out of character!

No question is sacred and probably the character won't lie to you.

Comments

[x-polarisstar.livejournal.com]

Is explaining even going to help?

It's not Gambit. It's not Belladonna. It's not even mostly Remy. I'm sure you'd be the first to agree that I'm hardly right in the head.

Limiting this to things I'm aware of in my own head, I ...it just felt wrong. From the moment I met him in France, it felt wrong. When I met Remy, he was one of the only people that I could trust and count on. I leaned on him for that. Then he went away and when he came back, he was hurting and needed me. So I did what I could.

I don't know why I fell in love with him. Part of it, I think was that it was a very non-threatening relationship to be in. With Alex, everything was too big and too permanent. We were on the path to an entire life and I couldn't even look in the mirror without having a second where I didn't recognize my face.

Being with someone who could understand that made more sense. It wasn't that cold, I swear it wasn't. But that's what happened. I ran to someone who understood having that broken sense of self.

He got better though and I didn't. And I couldn't handle the way he was well. Not because he was married--though partially because he didn't bother to tell me himself and instead let Tante slap me with her existence which seemed needlessly cruel. Not because of Gambit, tht's not who he is. Because of me.

There were other things. But that's the bulk of it, not him. Me. For once, that cheesy breakup line was true.

(Mun: Longest answer ever. Geez, Lorna.)

[xp_daytripper]

Thanks for explaining it. You'll excuse me tho' if I say I told you so in Nwe Orleans and then avoid you like the plague?

[x-polarisstar.livejournal.com]

No, I think that's pretty understandable. I did my best, Amanda. I loved him and I still care about him. But I really don't think that we're what each other needs. He deserves someone...sane. And I need to not be with anyone until I can feel sure I'm alone in my head.

[x-legion.livejournal.com]

. . . so as your backup for a completely nonthreatening male relationship you chose the telepathic mutliple-personality. Uh huh.

I don't know where you bought that map of reality, lady, but if I were you I'd ask for a refund.

[x-polarisstar.livejournal.com]

Shut up, Cyndi. You have to admit that as broken people who won't judge go, Jim's about as perfect a candidate can come.

Besides, I like his trucks.

[xp_daytripper]

Two broken people don't make a whole - believe me, I know. I just wish you'd have this fucking epiphany before you told him you wanted to try being together.

Now if you'll excuse me, I have a broken friend to fret about.

[x-polarisstar.livejournal.com]

Try sleeping with him again. Maybe that'll help.

[xp_daytripper]

I really don't think it would. Besides, we've moved on from that - 's not that kind of relationship and stopped being that the minute he left to look for you.

[x-polarisstar.livejournal.com]

Too bad, you're more his type than I am.

[nute.livejournal.com]

Not because he was married--though partially because he didn't bother to tell me himself and instead let Tante slap me with her existence which seemed needlessly cruel.

Ha ha, you got bitchslapped by Miss Cleo.

[x-polarisstar.livejournal.com]

And she enjoyed it. *grumbles*

[xp_daytripper]

Of course she did. Gambit's scared of her, what did you expect? Hugs and puppies?

[x-polarisstar.livejournal.com]

Well, that would be for the man I was dating to not set me up like that. I thought that was obvious.

[xp_daytripper]

Perhaps he had other things on his mind? Like the Guilds breaking into all-out war? Or the fact that only a week before he was expecting to get killed in a messy way, or have his leg taken off?

Not everything's about you, princess. Grow up.



(Mun: *sits on the brat and gags her* Yes, I know she said she was going away. Pray my lawyer turns up and distracts me, yes?)

[x-polarisstar.livejournal.com]

I'm just answering your questions, Amanda. If you don't want to know, don't ask.

(Mun: This just keeps getting better and better.)

[x-gambit.livejournal.com]

Not because he was married--though partially because he didn't bother to tell me himself and instead let Tante slap me with her existence which seemed needlessly cruel.

I'd like to point out that I haven't told you a lot of things because exactly how do you sum of twenty years of horrors into need to know. What's more important? The fact that I was married? The fact that I was also a rapist? A child murder? Wanted for war crimes in five countries? Still hunted by Interpol and the FSB?

There was no good in Gambit. None. Anything you ever asked, I would have answered honestly. But you didn't, and that was because you didn't want to know. I don't blame you, but you'll excuse me if I do not feel particularly guilty about the existance of his wife. In the list of crimes of my past, she's very far down and weighs a lot less on me then the lives I've destroyed.

[x-juggernaut.livejournal.com]

Frankly, we would have accepted "the thought of having to be seen in public with LeBeau and his hot pink bowling shirt" as a legitimate answer.

[x-polarisstar.livejournal.com]

I think maybe that's a good illustration of why I couldn't stay. Marriage isn't a crime or a sin to me. But it is the kind of thing you mention to your girlfriend.

I was prepared for horrors. I wasn't prepared to be humiliated.

[x-gambit.livejournal.com]

You weren't humiliated. Tante does what she chooses to, and for whatever reason she feels is best for her.

As for Belladonna, it amazes me that you believe a one day event, that happened ten years ago, really stuck out in my mind. Gambit gave it no importance, and for me, it was one more detail that seemed a little less important to consider than trying to deal with an ocean of blood on my hands. Until Tante brought it up, I hadn't even considered it.

Honestly, do you think I was hiding it from you? Somehow saving that knowledge to hurt you with?

[x-polarisstar.livejournal.com]

I wasn't humiliated? You're Manuel now and you can tell me what I was feeling?

Defend Tante, defend yourself. I don't care. You'll believe whatever you want to about my motives and feelings. Just because it meant nothing to you doesn't make it unimportant to me. We never understood enough about each other. That's the problem, Remy.

[x-gambit.livejournal.com]

So why did you come back? I was dealing with it, Lorna. I had a mangled leg, a head full of drugs and I was still dealing with it! Until you walked in broke everything that was left!

You knew how I felt about you, and now you're using the excuse that we never understood each other? Do you think maybe that's something you should have considered before you came to me and said that you wanted this and to fight for our relationship?

You're right. There's a lot about you I didn't understand, but I always believed in you. I never said you came back out of Catholic guilt, or pity, or just that you needed a break from Alex and couldn't do that on your own. Even now, I believe that you do just need time to get your head together, because to even consider anything else means that I believe less of you, and I can't do that.

[x-polarisstar.livejournal.com]

You have everything back now. Health, strength, confidence, job, friends. Should I have stayed until I hated you for getting better?

I loved you. I still do. How long was I supposed to fight to make this work, Remy? It's been 8 months. When was the magical number when it would have been okay for me to say "I can't do this. I'm not healthy enough to do this"?

I'll take the blame for all of this. But I can't give you a relationship when I can't even take care of a damn puppy.

[x-legion.livejournal.com]

Of all the baggage that comes with dating a former sociopath and killer, that's your dealbreaker?

You're very pretty.

[x-polarisstar.livejournal.com]

It's like no one even bothered to read the FOUR paragraphs that explained that NO, BELLADONNA WAS NOT WHY I BROKE UP WITH REMY!

I'm going to rent a freaking billboard.

[x-legion.livejournal.com]

I was teasing. I know the real reason you broke up with him was because you're a barely functioning pile of emotional scartissue duct-taped into a passable immitation of a human being. I mean, that's only the basis of our entire friendship.

If you rent a billboard, maybe you should throw "I AM NOT DATING DAVID HALLER!" on it, too. You seem to feel it's just as important to point out, and people are just as likely to believe it.